Tuesday, January 13, 2004

Good Boy

As I mentioned recently, I just finished Blair Jackson’s biography of Jerry Garcia. He’s not the most compelling writer I’ve ever read, and the book went into rather more detail in some matters than I’d have preferred; I could sum it up by saying, if you thought Return of the King ended rather too abrupty, you’d find this a gripping read.  I did learn a great deal, though, about a thoroughly fascinating man and a true creative genius.  And it’s an unusual experience for me to be reading a thick volume of significant journalistic and investigative research, and recognize in it incidents from my own life.  “Oh yeah, Spectrum ‘86, I brought hamentashen to the parking lot that year.” “Oh yeah, Dylan and the Dead in Anaheim; that’s when I sunburned my head so badly I was sick for a week and never went out without a hat again.” “Oh yeah, the memorial concert at the Polo Grounds.  What an overwhelming outpouring; what great music; what a great party.”

One reference in particular rang a bell for me - an offhand mention of some security problems at Irvine Meadows ‘89.  But I remembered a lot more than the book mentioned.  I, after all, had been there - and not alone.

We were all there, Kel and me and a lot of other people.  I think Al and Phil and a bunch of affiliated freaks were around, and my sister Evi was there too with Clyde the wonderdog - a big german shepherd, solidly built, friendly, smart and damned sharp looking.  Clyde was the archetypical guard dog, but as he lived with Evi, he knew the hippie score very well indeed.  In every sense of the word, Clyde was what a dog should be.

Being as he was such a good dog, and as she was still young enough to be naieve about a few things, Evi left Clyde tied to the bumper of her car while she went in to the show.  During the concert, as Blair recounts, we could see the security team ranging the dark stark hills behind the outdoor ampitheater.  They had ATVs and big spotlights and they were scurrying hither and yon to keep the ticketless hordes from gaining access to Deadsville.  From where I stood it was nothing more than a light show.  I felt sorry for everybody who was out there getting dusty and sweaty without good acoustics to dance to, cops and scammers and random wastrels alike.  But beyond that, I did not care.  I was having a high time, living the good life, and the troubles of the outside world ranked low in my hierarchy of concerns. 

After the show we wandered through the bizarre bazaar, a veritable ren fair for freaks, back to Evi’s car.  There we discovered the unthinkable, or at least the profoundly disappointing: Clyde was gone.  His leash lay limp on the pavement, still tied to the bumper.  Someone had let him go.  Evi was nigh hysterical and we started an ostensibly methodical search of the sprawling parking lots, which were jammed with vendors and lost souls and gawkers and standard issue hippies all strung out after a really good four-hour dance concert.  We had miles and miles of parking lot to cover; we tried calling for Clyde but we had shouted ourselves hoarse during the concert and everywhere there was sound and confusion . 

After about 90 minutes of fruitless effort, and acting out of pure desparation, I resorted to one of my fallback skills: I can talk to people.  So when my searches led me to the main gates and the security command center, I stepped up to report Clyde as missing.

The fellow I chose to approach was clearly (to me) a ranking officer of the in-house security force, who stood like a yellow-jacketed oaken pier piling in a surging sea of dazed freaks.  He’d had a long night, with another one to come the next day, and he was tired of inarticulate, incoherent heads asking him dumb questions.  I presented myself very much in that mold when I stepped into his awareness, but at least had garnered my capacities beforehand so as to be prepared to interact with him politely and effectively. I therefore spoke with all the clarity I could muster: “Excuse me sir, I think I need to report a lost dog, in case anyone recovers him.”

The guardsman smiled on me with less indulgence than disdain.  “You folks let a lot of dogs go.  Don’t know how to care for a good dog.  I wouldn’t expect you’ll find yours, this is a wide open space and dogs spook and run, get lost, get hurt....  Well okay.  What’s his name?”

“Clyde.  He’s a german -”

“Clyde?  Oh, Clyde.” That light that hadn’t been on behind his eyes had turned back on.  He got on his walkie-talkie.  “This is Jackson.  Who’s got Clyde?” A voice shortly crackled back: “Billy’s got Clyde up back, rousting campers.” “Well send him down, his people are looking for him.”

What we’d repressed was that Clyde came from a line of police dogs, and as much as I hate to accept it, genetics counts - in dogs, anyway.  It was in his blood.  So, after he’d gotten loose, it seems he’d gone straight to the top cops of the venue to ask for instructions, and they’d put him to work - enthusiastically tracking down gatecrashers in the hills for those ATVs and searchlights I’d seen during the concert, busting freaks and jerks alike.  He was living his dream while I lived mine, hunting while I danced.  By the time the security team brought him back to us, grinning broadly and clearly actualized, Evi had joined me, crying with relief.  “That’s a mighty fine dog you’ve got there,” Jackson told her as he handed Clyde over to her. 

MORAL: Character is not a function of circumstance.

that's just the way it seemed to me at 09:36 AM


scrap whatever else is on your reading list and pick up Frida. After this you’ll really appreciate it. The writing is wonderful and the woman, well, she was amazing.

Posted by patricia  on  01/13  at  11:25 AM

What a great dog story...and tell Evi that PetePete Ballinger said Hello!

Posted by Miss Bliss  on  01/13  at  11:52 AM

Mona, you may have just told her yourself, but I’ll be sure to pass the word.  And pea, I’ve got to read one borrowed book and then I’ll pick up the green monster that is Frida.  You’re right, as usual.  It’s time.

Posted by dan  on  01/13  at  12:10 PM

one of my favorite stories, despite the fact that it paints me in a somewhat poor light for leaving my beloved clyde in such an ultimately dangerous position.  i still really believed in the “bubble of protection” around dead shows.  actually, since clyde was found and totally unharmed (in fact, he was having the time of his life!), i suppose the bubble could still exist.

just a few corrections, though, my darling chuckles.  1) it was shoreline 91, not irvine 89.  clyde was born in 1990.  irvine 89 did have security issues, though.....that was the time the security guards were driving their golf carts through the parking lot after the show, shouting “there’s gonna be a lot of blood!” and breaking bottles to scare people.  it scared me.
2) i didn’t leave clyde alone.  no, even more naive than that, i left him with some freaks that i had only just that evening met, and who said that they did not have tickets so would be in the parking lot all night.  they had dogs, and liked clyde (everyone liked clyde....he ruled!), so i thought it was safe to leave him there.  how wrong i was. 3) and lastly, although the security guards at shoreline *did* know him, they did not actually have clyde with them.  he was brought back by some deadheads who had found him in the outermost parking lot.  when he came back, his eyes were glowing and i could tell he was thinking, “this place is great mom.....can we do this everyday?!” my answer to him was...."hell, no!”

Posted by  on  01/13  at  12:24 PM

hey, for anyone who wants to see clyde, here is a link to a photo, taken shortly before he shuffled off this mortal coil at the age of 10.

Posted by  on  01/13  at  12:47 PM

It would be easy to think that I’m modifying and embellishing the details of my own life to make them palatable (if hardly interesting) to a “mass audience” of the sort I delude myself that I may someday have.  In fact the only reason I have told this story with so many convenient omissions and misstatements is because I forgot those details altogether.  My brain is a goddamn sieve on a good day and by that time on that night I was not at my sharpest.  I guess I just told the story by collapsing it down to the parts that I could remember.  Except for the Shoreline part - your reasoning is unassailable, Evi, and the wrong information just seems to be lodged in my brain.  As for the rest, I think I like my story better but yours is more thorough, more truthful in detail.  But I’m not sure, if I’d remembered it the way it had actually happened, that I’d have taken away from it what I got out of it.  That doesn’t justify my lapses in memory, but it does help reconcile me to them.  Thanks for setting me straight, though.  But every other story I ever told, now - every one of those details was perfectly accurate.  Mostly.

Posted by dan  on  01/13  at  12:48 PM

Yeah, right.  I bet your name isn’t even Dan.

Posted by Greg  on  01/13  at  02:35 PM

and he’s probably not a boy. no wonder he looked good in a dress. hmm. fascinating.

booger. why must you fight me at every turn. just read the silly book like i told you to. i swear. i have half a mind to fly out there and hold the damn thing in front of you until you get through it.

the other half says i’m too lazy to actually do that so i guess you can do whatever the hell you please.

Posted by patricia  on  01/13  at  04:53 PM

I made it to one and only Dead concert. Got bad shrooms and one of my tires slit, and it’s still recounted as one of the best nights of my life.

Posted by Kim  on  01/13  at  11:33 PM

Greg’s just bitter over the Great Mushroom Debate. 

And your borrowed book is intense - when I worked at a children’s hospital I tried to get everyone to read it.  No one would.  Fuckers.

Posted by nikita  on  01/14  at  01:58 PM
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