Wednesday, February 26, 2003

i feel like i’m falling

i feel like i’m falling
when i’m just standing still
ground rushing up to smash me flat
i know it’s not gravity
everything sucks
and the best laid plans swim down the crapper
ask me again why i never smile
i’ll tell you a story that never ends
each chapter tattooed on my shivering flesh
i just tear off a piece and read it in silence
i can smell the disgust and revulsion that follow
me through every alley and gas station restroom
forgot where i hid myself
never been lost like this
staggering, feeling the grinding of bone
against bone in my hip socket
wearing down faster now
vertebrae collapse together
shorter every step i take
slumping closer to the pavement
maybe if i just keep walking
through the nights of frigid blindness
days of lurid voiceless thoughts
i’m hoping if i just keep walking
i might disappear completely